The Sickness

My skin literally feels like what you might imagine a lizard with cooking oil all over it feels like. My nose and throat like a vaccuum cleaner bag exploded in my face while I was yawning. I want to go home and lay down but the bed will just make my bones hurt worse. The ground outside is covered in shit colored snow and its so fucking cold out that the sentence "motherfucker its is FREEZING out" is all that goes through my head. When I cough I can taste remnants of cigarettes and other shit that was inhaled days ago. I hate being sick. I hate being sick I hate being sick. Go away sick. Stop now. I swear Ill sleep better and start wearing a jacket just leave me be.

Public Transportation Sucks

Wake up, brush teeth, head out the door, gross orange pill under my tongue, cigarette, bus, fuck off, Curry, time check-late, "free metro", "no thanks, got a book", waiting waiting, Train rolls in, frantic seat hungry asians, read my book, hide my face under my; hood, sunglasses, and pages, Wollaston, North Quincy, the long haul to JFK where my back feels like its breaking, "two more stops Liz hang in there", "South Station change here for commuter rail and silver line", Ahhhh so close, Hike up the very steep steps because its good excercise and then curse myself for not taking the escalator, too early in the morning to be pushing my body so hard, Next set of steps I take the escalator, cigarettes and lighter ready, cold blast of air "Free Boston Now" , "No thanks, Got a book", "spare change Miss" "sorry wish I could help", three blocks to work, comfort soon, hang in there, sit at my desk and feel the awesome relief in my lower back and put the space heater on, Lunch time, no money, no shit, 5pm time to leave, blast of cold in my face, cigarette, "spare change" "im broke sorry", "Free Boston Now" I just wave my book in the face, charlie card-not enough funds, no shit, scrape together some change, train, fuck off, Quincy Center, Donuts smell so good, laugh to myself abnout how pathetic not being able to afford a donut, bus, Curry, walk up the hill in shoes that are soaked, temporary home, walk upstairs, change, lay down. Ten hours until its time to do it all over again. Fuck, my life is so repititous, if thats even a word. Just plow through the next two months and things will be better.

Who says Public Tranportation Sucks

I overheard the most hiliarious conversation between two girls who appeared to be around 19 years old. It was on the bus this morning and it went like this.
Girl One "Why wouldnt your brother give you a ride?"
Girl two "Cause he's a fucking asshole.. but its alright I got him back, cause as soon as he left for work I went in his room and stole his money"

Pause and silence between them both for about One Minute

Girl Two "I really hope he gets attacked by rabid monkeys"

Awesome. But that wasnt the end of the awesomeness, They started talking about something else for a while and the girl Two casually says

" I think Im gonna take a nap today at nap time" (Im assuming they work at a daycare)

Girl One "I think Im gonna shoot myself in the face today"
Girl Two "well at least wait and do it after nap time"
Girl One "Yeah Good point"

Silence for a little while and then
Girl One says to Girl Two "hey I saw Hooker Mary this morning if that makes you feel any better"
Girl Two "oh yeah what was she wearing?"
Girl One "Red Spandex"
Girl Two "hooker Mary is gonna catch pnemonia today"

That was the end of the conversation.Thank you girls for making my morning memorable with your hilarious conversation